Margene, it was so good to see you so rested and so excited about your trip.  I could see that was exacatly what you needed.  Travis would want you to go on and that is now what you are doing.  He will always be with you and I know that you know that as well.  I love you!  DeeDee

I miss you so much Travis

I can't believe it's been over a year and my heart aches as much as it did the day you left us here. I know you are watching over all of us, and you see us when we visit you. Until we meet again, always missing you...

Death is nothing at all,
I have only slipped away into the next room.
Whatever we were to each, that we are still.
Call me by my old familiar name.
Speak to me in the easy way which you always used.

Laugh as we always laughed
at the little jokes we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me. Pray for me.
Let my name be the household word it always was.
Let it be spoken without effort.
Life means all that it ever meant.
It is the same as it ever was;
there is absolutely unbroken continuity.
Why should I be out of your mind
because I am out of your sight?
I am but waiting for you, for an interval,
somewhere very near just around the corner...
All is well. Nothing is past, nothing is lost.

One brief moment and all will be as it was before,
only better, infinitely happier
and forever we will be one together.

Happy Valentine's Day

Last night I saw a vision, it was clear as it could be, it filled my room with joy because you were there with me.

I realized come morning that the vision wasn't there,  I ached to have you near me, why is this so unfair?

Then it struck me that the vision was oh so very real, and I knew there was a purpose which now I will reveal.

The truth is you are with me, whether sleeping or awake, my thoughts reveal your presence with every breath I take.

And so my son I tell you, even though we are apart,  day or night, awake or in my dreams, you live within my heart.

this is tough for me...to share how I feel that is, but I guess its about time I got some things off my chest as well!  Im the one to get very angry and upset when talking about you so bear with me....I understand that as long as I knew you I had SO many memories made, good ones at that! But somehow seem to dwel on the one day that changed my life?! Does that make any sence? "End of the first" or not the days dont get any more easy! I still think about you all the time... kind of hard not to when I live in your house! still over a year later waiting for you to walk in that door! Im there day in and day out with my sister hand in hand with her! Some how Travis I have enough to hopefully help her through everyday! I really try, ultimately knowing I cant make the days anybetter wihtout you! I remember one of my last times spent with you was taking down the Christmas Lights off the house last year! Guess what Trav there still up and its Feb. 14th tomorrow!  Haha thats funny knowing how you were...always getting things done! Ill never get over you not being there to drink with me on my 21st! I cryed in bed about it that night before bed...as Sarah laid there and rubbed my back until I fell asleep! I guess shes my back bone as I try to be hers! In High school you were always on my case about who I had a crush on or what boys I liked quizing me and or my sister if she knew anything... always looking out for me, like the big brother I never had! And just like a big brother you never liked any that I brought around! you were my guardian angel then as you are now! SO many memories, too many to talk about here! But not a day goes by without a thought of you.... Im pretty sure you know this! All I have to do is look down to think of you...And I know you were there with me that day also! HAHA our secret for now! Miss you always Travis! Until we meet again!

Your Little Sister-

Emily

Thank you for your candle :-)  I remember reading about that accident in the paper that next day and Ryan's mom told me about it as well (she drove past on her way to work that morning). Sometimes I think we all pay a little more attention when someone young dies when it has happened to you....

I am sorry for your loss as well.  I watched your slide show and he actually reminds me some of Ryan....  tall, handsome, hard working, worked with their hands, came from a family of four.....  just a lot of things I noticed..... 

I love your memorial site and I'll have to find your son's grave.  I was just there yesterday but there is SO much snow now!  I'm glad you liked the handprints....  his boys were so proud to decorate daddy's grave.....

Sincerely,

Dana, Zakari, Izeah, and Zane

Today is James' 24th Birthday.  I know Travis and James are celebrating in Heaven tonight.  It gives me some comfort to know that these two boys are together.  I hope these two have a good party for James.

Travis,  I miss you so much.  I just need you to come back and everything will be okay

Margene, it's hard to believe that an entire year has past. So many things come and go in all of our lives, but your world, and the world of Shawn, Aaron, Lance, Greg, and of course Sarah in so many ways seemed to stop. There's no way I could ever know what you're all feeling, but I do know that Travis is in the best hands that ever existed and there's no doubt that he is waiting for the appropriate time to hold you and all those that loved him once again. Please know that we are and have been praying for you, and are thankful that this is just a temporary separation.

Margene,
It is hard to believe that a whole year has gone by already.  I find myself thinking of you, Shawn, Aaron, Lance, and Sarah often.  I miss Travis alot.  I miss alot of things about him but mostly his smile.  He was/is loved by many friends and family.  He affected alot of lives in such positive ways.  You have a lot to be proud of.  I don't know where or how you find the strenth and courage to get through each day but I hope that you continue to do so.  Travis legacy lives strong in you, his brothers, and his nieces and nephews.

 Margene, Shawn and family, Aaron and lexie, lance and family and Sarah. Today is going to be a hard and sad day for all of you, but with everyone praying for you I know you will all make it somehow. This is the last of the firsts you have and you made it through all of the others and with Gods help this day will pass too. I kow how I feel as I miss Travis too . I still miss your dad and grandpa just as I did three years ago, time does have a way of passing us by and I think that God is there for us whenever we need him so just remember that and don't be afraid to ask him for help. I plan to go visit Travis sometime today and Hope he is looking down at evryone who goes to see him. I'm sure he is so proud of all of you for caring so much. I love all of you, Mom and grandma